Crying Inside

Every day I'm crying inside,
the pain of the past never goes away,
I see the person I am now,
and I know I can change and be so much happier,
but my heart has been broken,
I can't seem to let things go,
I see and hear things that hurts me every day,
and sometimes I see myself in the people that get hurt,
and I'm crying inside,
because I feel their pain,
I hide away so nobody will know,
how weak I am,
but some how people see it,
and I end up getting hurt,
because they see my weakness,
I'm sick of blaming myself for everything that happens,
it's like it's natural instinct for my heart to hide away,
I'm crying inside,
you see me and you see someone full of life,
but what people don't know and never will know,
is I cry inside,
I can't thank God enough for what he has done for me,
but there's times I take it for granted,
because I am weak,
I am a sinner saved by grace,
lost in my own hell,
waiting for God to take me Home Sweet Home,
every day I'm crying inside,
nobody really knows me,
they may think they do,
but they don't,
nobody does!